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LOL TURNS OUT I'M NOT DONE WITH IDOL-CENTRIC POSTS, SORRY BBS

Adam Lambert and Kris Allen have had a lot of incredibly adorable moments, and this post is here to celebrate all these moments... in gif form. So yes, it's basically a Kradam gif picspam!

Even if you're not into Idol, I still think you should check this post out because the cuteness is a wonder to behold, omg. There is no way to be sad when you're watching their love. ♥

( very much not dial-up friendly )

THE SECRET LOVERS MEME

Also since Timmy no longer wanted to keep it I am now in possession of a ~*~free ipod~*~ YUS

...though how much money do you think I'd be able to make if I sold it? /cheap bastard

Another also: why am I becoming increasingly attracted to assholes? First I stopped hating Simon Cowell and started thinking he was the only good thing about American Idol, and now... GORDON RAMSAY IS NOT ATTRACTIVE BRI STFU BRAIN! Damn Krystal getting me into Hell's Kitchen >:|

I've been struggling a lot lately, but I came to the realization that there is a gaping emptiness in my life, in my soul, and everything I have been doing are the WRONG ways to fill it.

Food can't do it. Fandom can't do it. Languages can't do it. Not even my lovely friends are enough.

I have known all along the only thing that can, but I have been led so astray from the truth, I had been able to fool myself for so long... but no longer.

I know now... only God can fill this emptiness. I was in the darkness for so long when the truth was so simple!

I never really listened to what the people at my old church said, because I was so stuck in my ways. Now, I know better. I'm going to return and REALLY listen to them, without letting any of my past beliefs get in the way.

I really think that they have gotten in the way of a lot of other things, too. I feel so... dirty when I look back on all that I've said, all that I've read, all that I've done. I have let sin taint my life for so long. I want to feel pure again.

Another thing I've realized is that if I truly want to be pure, then I can no longer be a part of fandom. There are too many temptations in it, and while God gives me strength, I don't know if I can overcome temptations that huge.

Because of that, and the fact that this LJ contains many vivid, detailed accounts of all the sins I've committed, I feel like I NEED to move. I already have a new LJ, encielocondios. I haven't added you all there yet because this is so sudden, I want you to read this and then make the choice of whether or not you still want to be friends. While it would be painful to separate from you, I cannot force you to stay friends with this new version of me, who is quite different than the persona you have seen for so long. After all, I will be trying to purify myself, in all senses of the word.

I am sorry for this abrupt announcement, but it is something I do need to do. I hope you will follow me there, but if not, I will keep you in my prayers. ♥

Okay, it's official guys: nothing makes me happier than seeing Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert together. ♥ Last night I almost died of extreme squee during the Colbert Report, and I rewatched the scene and even though I knew it was coming, I still, again, almost died of extreme squee.

I can tell especially since these guys are the only people/things to ever make my toes curl... and when I watch that scene in particular? It's almost painful, I'm so gleeful. And weird bubbly giggly noises come out of my mouth and I grin so widely and damn, they make me happy.

Yeah sure there's other stuff in my life right now but who cares?!?!